This far the Lord has brought me.

When i sit down and review my life, i wonder what runs in God's mind in the other side. The question that comes to my mind is why me?

Born to a Musoga father with a Kisoga name, abandoned by his biological father at a tender age where he couldn't even recognise his father.

Picked up by a maternal grandfather who became the father figure in his early years of life in a certain Japadhola village in Tororo. Names changed to one that would suite the village and family that had now solely taken responsibility of him. Had one of the greatest and most exciting moments some of which he still misses up to date. picked up by his mother in 1993, where he meets this gentleman who will later become his step-father.

Unlike most cases, this turned out to be one of the most generous, caring and loving step-fathers. Unless you are familliar with the family history you can never tell that this is a step father even if you are given an opportunity to stay home for some time.

They definately had many ups and downs, but not to the extent that would over shadow the great side of him. He ows his achievements to him. The big surprise here is that, all this time his biological father is alive and not even showing any sign of interest in his own son.

From there on, life has become an adventure, with rough roads, smooth ones, thorny moments, rugged times, joyful times, happiness and love all coming in the mixture.

When i look at all this, this is what comes to my mind, "why me"?

I know many of us have been in this times in one way or the other, whichever way it has come be thankful. You may hear this or read it and inside you say, you think that is rough. Well whatever it may be to you there is one thing that i have learnt from all this and that will surely stand out all through. God is trying to teach you something and this is where i have lost it probably in most times, instead of asking what God is teaching and what lessons to pick from it, we go ahead and look for whom to blame, who got us in this situation, and make statements such as if it wasn't for so and so.

I think and truely believe that all this is crap. it puts no difference between us and the worrying man sitted on a rocking chair yet not getting anywhere. This is where the beauty of salvation comes in to bring a diffrence between the christians and others.

Romans 8 has so much for us especially in times when we are low, sad, worrying and above all doubting God's ability to see us through it all. God has seen me through situations that if i sit down to make counts, i could never remember all and that is where my big question comes in, "why me"? Well, i don't have to answer that, you may probably have a better answer than i do but the truth of the matter is, God is Weird.

The times when i am on the low spiritually and feeling like God could never hear my prayers are the times when God has come out big. I am not encouraging myself to keep in the low or advising you to do the same but one thing that i am trying to bring forward is that God is a very faithful father and despite his consistence in our life, we always present him with a wave instead of a straight line if used to measure our consistence.

We may look for consolation on the fact that well, he is God, but he clearly states in his word that be perfect just as your father in heaven is perfect. Both me and you know that God means every Word in his book and if yes, how much of us are we giving in trying to bring our consistenc on the straight line.

Think of how far the Lord has brought you and then ask yourself if you are giving him back your best. This should be our desire every minute.

God bless you.

Solo